In Great Circle Jaime says, “The compromise is that I’m living day to day without making any sweeping decisions.”

I realize I have fallen into this way of thinking. Whispering to myself, everything is fine today.

Although I do still enjoy imagining other lives, get caught up in the swell of possibility, for the first time in a long time I feel settled.



Jamie’s sister Marian says, “Is that compromise? It sounds a bit like procrastination. You don’t think you’ll go back to being how you were before, do you?”

I know I won’t go back to being how I was before. I know that today. I’m not sure what I’ll know tomorrow.

Reading articles about women realizing they are tired of working the corporate ladder and feel vindicated in my low-paying jobs with no benefits.

When the farmer in Spain doesn’t reply to my emails about a room and board work agreement, when the Airbnb host in Greece offers me his camper van instead of his home, I decide it’s all too much and I give up. I’m not upset about it. I’m relieved.

Instead, I make easy plans to see the Redwood Forest, right here in the good ol’ U. S. of A. I plan to stop in Medicine Bow, WY on my way from Denver to Bismarck next time I’m there. My next adventure is right around the corner instead of a nine-hour flight away.

I make plans to make less plans. I stop looking for more jobs. The low-paying jobs I have now are quite fulfilling and they pay me enough to cover my health insurance and put a little aside.

What they give me is time. Time to have lunch with my sister-in-law on her birthday. Time to take a 4-day weekend to see my new niece. Time to take a walk downtown on a Wednesday and bring Roxy a sandwich while she slings books at the low-paying bookstore where I no longer work. Time to read all the books in my house. Time to volunteer in the middle of the day.

Call it compromise. Call it procrastination.

I call it feeling settled.